End of Quarter 2 Reflections and Ramblings

     Although I am convinced that no one reads my blog no matter how I try to promote it, I will continue to post.  I suppose it is my fault because I am not consistent with posting, I don't promote myself well on Pinterest and I just feel like I don't have anything exciting to say.  Or, maybe I just can't toot my own horn well enough... I don't know, but it's frustrating at times.  That's probably part of the problem, because I make these sarcastic, negative comments.  Instead, I need to be bubbly, enthusiastic and super-excited all the time about the fabulous learning that is happening in my classroom.
     Don't get me wrong- fabulous learning is happening in my classroom.  But, sometimes it's not that exciting! And, I am not sure it's always best practices.  And, I can't stop making sarcastic, negative comments... so, don't continue if you expect a bubbly, cutesy and everything is fabulous post. :)
     I've taught for 21 years, and I can honestly say that we are at a strange time in education.  I think the last time things were this strange was when we started No Child Left Behind... Hmmm, that's interesting- whenever we have programs/standards shoved down our throats without any training teaching becomes so much harder.  But, the shift to No Child Left Behind felt different that this one.  At least with NCLB, the district I was in was purchasing programs and putting money into the new hoops we had to jump through.  Now, in the district I am in (a different, more affluent area than I was in for NCLB) we are alone-sinking or swimming and not knowing how far the shoreline is, what dangers are lurking out there, and where we can go for help.  My district has provided next-to-nothing for us in terms of resources to help us shift into Common Core.  We have had maybe 4 hour total in training (shifts in common core standards and close reading).  Our district purchased the Eureka Math books for the teachers and told us it is not a required curriculum.  No resources have been provided for language arts. And, there's no plan to purchase resources.
     Teachers are left with nothing to use to teach the new standards.  Thank goodness for Teachers Pay Teachers...  But, with teachers buying their own things comes problems we're not thinking about. 1) Teachers are getting poorer if that's even possible! 2)  Teachers are getting resentful that they are need to provide curriculum for the district (My husband always says, "Shouldn't your district be providing that for you?" when he sees the credit card bills.) 3)  There's NO consistency from school to school, district to district.  I think that last one is the biggest one- and the one that will hurt us the most in the long run.  The standards are vague enough that there's all kinds of interpretations about what they mean, how they will be assessed and what students should be able to do after that standard has been taught.  The Common Core standards are supposed to unite us so we're all teaching the same standards... but I think because of districts' lack of support to teachers it is really going to backfire on us at some point.
     So, here I sit reflecting on my Quarter 2 and I can honestly say that good teaching wasn't always happening every day at every moment. (I think after reading way too many blogs that I am the only one this is happening to- or I am the only one telling the truth)  I am limited by time, resources and support.  In past years we had resources, so I had more time to supplement those resources and create better lessons.  Now, I have no resources so the time I have is spent just interpreting the standards and then finding what I need to teach.  Those things aren't perfect so I either spend time I don't have making them better or use them even though they are not always "best practices".  It's a vicious cycle that I honestly don't see an end to.  I see teachers more frustrated than we've ever been before.  I see veteran teachers saying that they don't know how to teach anymore. I see newbies wanting to quit after one or two years because it's not worth the hassle.  I see administrators putting more and more pressure on us and asking us to do more and more with less and less. I see tests that don't match the standards but we're being judged on our test scores.
     Okay, now I somehow have to bring this around to a positive and leave this post feeling motivated, excited and ready to move forward to a new year with bright possibilities and a myriad of wonderful learning experiences.  That's what I'd like to do...but not sure that I can.
      Even though standards have changed and sometimes it seems like the children we are teaching are changing, good teaching doesn't have to change.  Students need us to know how they learn best.  Students need us to know that we care.  Students need us to know that they are more to us than a percentage on a high-stakes test.  When we look out at our students, we need to see beyond the latest federal programs, the lack of resources and all the other problems facing our education system today. We need to see past that to the 25 (or more) individual students that don't care which standards we are teaching or which program we are using or which test we are taking in April.  They just want a teacher who knows what they are doing, who cares about them, and has their best interests at heart.